​sphere merchants - ​go on without me

{verse 1}
Might need you to go on without me
Hate how i feel when you're around me
I'd rather be 6 in the ground be-
-cause i'm back to feeling like drowning
It all fell apart, my surroundings
Get blurry when i think about things
Remember the chemistry, how we
Shared touches and glances while drowsy
Just wish that you gave it a chance
Feel like it was over before it began
I thought the issue was distance
Then i closed the gap and you left me heartbroken again
Head in my hands
I wanna cry but i can't
Lay in my bed and pretend
Things that you said
Were the truth even though i bet they were at that time in your head

{hook}
Now i just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long i guess
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for romance and sex
I wanna die
Every time i'm left behind
The only constant in my life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine
Now i just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long i guess
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for romance and sex
I wanna die
Every time i'm left behind
The only constant in my life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine

{verse 2}
I'm a mess, i know that
Never been so down bad
I'm depressed, got no cash
Follow the steps but i'm 10 back
I don't know how to be alone
My heart's never found a real home
She's been stuck outside in the cold
Long enough that her blood's all froze
Heart is frozen, brain is rotting
I am running out of options
Living life as half a person
So pathetic, broken, worthless
There is nothing but the surface
I only exist for service
Use me up, exhaust my purpose
This is just the life i'm cursed with

{hook}
Now i just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long i guess
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for romance and sex
I wanna die
Every time i'm left behind
The only constant in my life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine
Now i just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long i guess
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for romance and sex
I wanna die
Every time i'm left behind
The only constant in my life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine

{outro}
Now i just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long i gue- gue- gue- gue-
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for roma-
Desire -sire -si- -si- -si- -si- -sire
I wanna d- d- di- die
I'm left behind
The only constant -stant -stant life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine fine f- f- f- f- f- f-