Twisthiphop - Clarity

{hook}
Is it the sun?
Is it the skies?
Look at me fly, look at me fly
Is it the clouds?
Is it the days?
I can't decide, could be a sign

{verse 1}
I'm coming to learn i'm not defined by situations, we are just defined by how we deal with 'em
Changed myself, so i could be with him
Cuz i can't chain myself if i'mma be given
All of this
Thoughts emit revolver in the noggin as a small shot at a perfect way of solving this, i'd never do it tho
I let songs express for me what i swallowed in, i am the culprit
No don't wanna be awake but i don't wanna go to sleep, i don't wanna be away but if i stay i'm growing weak, i don't wanna feel astray and i don't wanna smoke no weed but i gotta treat it in my brain before the whole can grow too deep
I don't sleep, i just rest from the numbing
In my own social life, the fact is i'm stunting
I enrolled into this fight, i didn't know what was coming for me
I soar at the sky, but every time i look up i'm falling

{hook}
Is it the sun?
Is it the skies?
Look at me fly, look at me fly
Is it the clouds?
Is it the days?
I can't decide, could be a sign

{verse 2}
I been feeling so amazing, wait, i'm dealing with a maze and too many imaginations, gotta say that it's all good
Peeling off the faces then i'm drifting off in days that i should really pay attention, should i mention how my thoughts move
Damned and i'm thoughtful
Can't focus on my school now cuz
I'm crazy and lost you
I just focus on my new sound
In this route i'm in, feel like i'm in a spider net and i don't know where the router is
Brain blow loud as shit, rain boast sour shit, it's why i eye at the sun when i stay home, how to live, how to live?
That's what i been trynna figure out, cuz i know what it's like to survive a life i can actually live without
Now i'm searching for a purpose and i think i found the niche, but i need to make my legacy something that i'm proud to give

{hook}
Is it the sun?
Is it the skies?
Look at me fly, look at me fly
Is it the clouds?
Is it the days?
I can't decide, could be a sign

{verse 3}
I'm making peace with death, is this maturity or depression?
Think it's a bit of both and i'm unsure of where i'm blessed on
I got a little hope, convinced myself that i'm the next up
Fake it till you make it, the lies put weight from my chest up
I'm not depressed tho, and if i am, i'm in denial
I'm such a mess tho, i call for chances then i dial
If life hits me then at least i let it get to me in style
By all means bottle, that's why i look for clarity in a vial
Head spinning like a vinyl i be idle with the pain
It's hard to be an idol when the trial's in your brain
Hard to see it final if you idolize the pain
It's why i keep my gifts present and go hide the lies away
I just wanna live with myself and the decisions i've chosen
Now i do trust myself near others, just not with my emotions
Lack of sleep and compulsions makes me think if my soul damned
Or maybe i blame everything on that when i should own them

{hook}
Is it the sun?
Is it the skies?
Look at me fly, look at me fly
Is it the clouds?
Is it the days?
I can't decide, could be a sign