CXRPSE - IMPERFECT

No amount of words
Could explain
How much I hate myself
Nothing fucking matters
Anyway
I might jus take myself
Out
Hit myself with the old yeller
Cuz lately I been feeling
So depressed under the weather

Everybody been making me
Feel worthless
Beginning the end but
Either way i’m still working
Thought we had something
But i guess it’s not worth it
So everybodys happy
In this stalemate but
Im hurting
Damn
Ain’t it a shame
How we throw blame
We fuck each other’s brains
Scream then feel the throat pain
Overdosing
And
Blowing the cocaine
I spent the summer drugged
Out
So i had to go drain

The way i’m feeling
Cuz you couldn’t imagine it
Thoughts of suicide
Because I couldn’t manage it
Had to step away
And take a look where my passion is
College dropout
But still a high school graduate

And then i ask
Are you proud of me mom
Are you proud of me dad
Am I proud that im sad
Fuck no
If it was up to me
Id never be mad
Never feel any way
Always glad to be glad
But
Life don’t work that way
You gotta work everyday
To secure that place
Uh
And don’t hurt that face
Go to the sink and splash
Some water
You deserve that day

Basically I always struggled with depression
It always take a death for you to learn a fucking lesson
I’m tryna learn to take the fucking day like it’s a blessing
Leave the past in the past
It’s time to focus on the present